For such a long time you have controlled me, my thoughts, my feelings, and my appearance. You made me doubt myself, and question myself worth.
Because of you, I put my self down ALOT. I constantly compared myself to everyone around me. And I made SO many changes to the way I looked and my personality.
Because of you, I accepted a lot LESS then I deserved. I allowed people to treat me like shit and I wasted so much of my time caring about what people thought of me.
Because of you, I did not believe in myself. I did not believe I was good enough, smart enough, pretty enough or funny enough.
Because of you, I always needed validation from others so that I felt important and worthy.
Because of you, I wasted so much time crying, complaining, over thinking.
Because of you, I was so focused on the negatives of myself , I did not think I had any positives.
I looked in the mirror and I did not even recognize who I was anymore. I had become a shadow of myself because you cut away all that I was.So I have fought to get to know myself again. I gave myself a chance, and I gave my self some self-love and attention.
I no longer have any interest in comparing myself to other’s, because I am happy with my life and who I am.
I am done altering my appearance because the truth is all the changes that I made, was only temporary fixes. Accepting myself was permanent. I learnt that people’s value of my mind is far more important of that of my face or weight.
I will never allow someone to treat me like shit. I know my worth, and I know what I deserve.
I will never waste another second of my time, crying or over thinking. Time is precious and I decide to spend it laughing, creating memories and actually living.
I no longer seek validation from anyone else, my opinion of me is more important than that of others – I do not live to make others happy. I live to make myself happy.
I will chase my dreams and I will climb over every barrier and road block along the way and I will not give up. I will never doubt myself or my worth again. I am important, and I deserve to be happy.
I may never always be 100% content with myself, but I accept my flaws now. They do not control me, they just make me who I am.
I am not what you made me think I am. I am SO much more!